7 Days of Sex Challenge

I wasn't going to blog about this because, frankly, it's none of your beeswax.

I mean, it not like it's a big secret. I'm married and I have two kids.

But it is sacred.

So, while trying to respect the sacred nature of intimacy, 

I'm putting myself out in a completely vulnerable place and sharing recent experiences with you.

Please be respectful.

And kind.

Because surely I can't be the only one struggling with this. 

THAT is why I share.

Here we go.

I'm kind of nervous.

I have been in a special place since the baby was born.

It is a not-so-fun place called Postpartum Depression.

{Maybe I'll share how I have been dealing with that, but that is another post for another day.}

All the hormones, colic, nursing, etc left me with zero libido.

More than zero. A negative number.

It was bad.

I even asked my OBGYN about it and I sort of got blown off.

Because that is 'normal' after having a baby.

{Pretty sure it isn't 'normal' to have a panic attack if your husband tries to touch you.}

Lincoln=miserable.

It was so bad, that it led me to write this, which I NEVER was EVER going to share with ANYONE.

--Lincoln will find out about it when I have him proof-read this post, unless I delete this paragraph.--

Please understand that this is depression talking. Not Jackie.

--I just went back to read it and made myself cry.--

What a mess I was.

I started to pray.

I prayed for months.

Heavenly Father, please help me to want to have Sex again. 

Help me to enjoy being with my husband.

I was led to the 7 Days of Sex Challenge.

And then I laughed and thought, "NOT A CHANCE"

So the Lord kept working on me.

For two weeks I thought about how there was no way I could do it.

Then I decided to trust in the Lord, move forward with faith, and join the challenge.

I didn't even tell Lincoln about it until the day the challenge started.

{I told him it was his Father's Day present.}

I'm telling you now that this was nothing short of a miracle in my life.

You can read about it here.

Or listen here.

{Embarrassing? Yes. But then again, I'm blogging about it now. So there you go.}

When I started I wasn't even sure I could do it.

But I did.

And you know what.

Sometimes change won't happen until you 

do the thing that scares you the most.

What a difference it has made for me, and for our marriage.

Was I planning on winning the grand prize when I started?

No.

If you are making some joke about how I got paid for having sex, that joke originated with me.

I also won the THIS really great book, which I'm excited to read.

I wasn't sure I could make it past day one when I started.

But I did.

And so can you.

Give it a try.

Start your own 7 days.

But only if you are married.

Also.

Check out the podcast.

They make running WAY more enjoyable.

--I don't even like to run--

People must think I am crazy because I am cracking up while I run about how well I can relate.



Loads of thanks DiLorenzos!